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I forgot what I wanted to say... [17 Aug 2008|10:39pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | Some NPR crap ]

Woah, the Cave was REALLY intense this year. I'm drained and my brain is a puddle of mush from partying. I thought about a lot of things and was able to wrap my head around a lot of problems I needed to confront but refused to do it. I learned a lot about love over the weekend and all the many different ways it can be expressed. It astounds me how many different ways there are for people to love each other and I'm lucky to have experienced all the different kinds of love through the different relationships that I've developed with the important people in my life.

I just have...so much to say that I need to get back to the real world in order to say something meaningful about all the lessons I learned that can't be put into words.

::sighs:: I have to work tomorrow at 1:00 PM. ::groans:: Life is always so beautiful when I'm blowing free and traveling like a tumble weed. I hate being settled and working a job that means nothing to me. Oh well, at least I can keep it positive for a little while after my rejuvenating vacation.

I need a shower and I need sleep. I feel like things took a turn for the better over the past week and a half and I need to keep this satisfying feeling alive so I can keep pushing towards my goal to return overseas.

Right. ZZZZZZZ.

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[12 Aug 2008|10:32am]
[ mood | sick ]

Yesterday was fun. We went snorkeling. At first I had a hard time because my mask wouldn't suction to my face and so water would rush in. My snorkel was also letting lots of water in and I couldn't use it. I spent about 15 minutes marveling at how everyone but me seemed to be able to get the hang of it. Finally, I asked the captain to help me fix my mask and he gave me another one. So half of the trip was wasted fooling with the wtf mask. But the next half hour was fun. I got to float around and look at fish. I felt like I was in an aquarium! I saw some HUUUGE, fat fish as long as my arm. I followed a huge rainbow colored fish around for a while until I started feeling weird from all the salt water I ingested when snorkel number one didn't work.

I also lit up at the Mallory Square last night. I got bitched out by the people who run the street performer act because I didn't have a permit and I didn't have a fire extinguisher (I did have a safety watching so I don't understand why I needed a fire extinguisher). But then they gave me a permit to fill out and a fire extinguisher to borrow so I was able to spin for a half hour. I made $6 because I didn't have any music or costumes or anything but that was ok, it was still fun :)

I officially have a sinus infection. It started 2 days ago and now it's set it. I'm on vacation and now I'm sick. Awesome. I wish life would stop shitting on me. This has been one of the worst years in a long time. I can't wait for 2008 to be OVER.

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Pretty Woman Moment [10 Aug 2008|10:59am]
So I've been using the computer to check my e-mail and LJ and one of the workers asked for my information to see if I'm staying here. I know it's because of my dreds. What a dick. People with dreds can stay in nice places too ;[

I'm going to light up tonight at the square where performers perform if it doesn't rain! I wanted to do it last night but my sister refused to safety me because she was so tired ;p

I wasted some money and walked around yesterday it was fun.

Beach today! Yea!
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Good Songs, Bad Videos and Louisville [09 Aug 2008|01:06am]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | We Share Our Mother's Health- The Knife ]

So yeah, I thought I'd share some music since I'm pretty private about what I listen to most of the time. I'm used to "G" and most of my snotty music friends putting down the music I like, so I usually don't share things with people, but what the hell, why not mention music every once in a while? These videos are pretty bad but I like the songs.

Music!Read more... )

So yeah, I woke up at 6 today and started packing my bags to go to Louisville. "G" did his best to help me by making fun of my "bad" music and reminding me that I over packed. I took the train to O'Hare and got there at around 10:30. My flight was at 1:30 so I had a lot of time to kill. I watched all the Japanese people in the airport and longed to be on a flight with them going to Japan ::sighs:: I also ate a bunch of overpriced food and played video games.
It was a beautiful day to fly, however. The sky was so blue and there were puffy, white clouds adorning the sky. The sun was such a nice gold color and made the clouds shine bright white. I watched the clouds from the plane window. It was amazing to see their demensions and fly through and around them. And it was such a clear day that we could see the little dots of houses and trees and cars on the ground during the whole flight. It was awesome.
When I got to Louisville I went to the bank and accompanied my mom to the pet store to buy some cat food. I ran into a girl I was friends with in grade school. That was a trip. I was surprised she recognized me! lol. When I got home, I crashed and took a nap. I had dinner with my family and then we watched the Olympic opening ceremony, that was actually really impressive. I really don't like the Chinese government and I think it was a bad idea to have the Olympics in
China because of the pollution (since I know the 2nd hand effects of it first hand) but the ceremony was amazing...it actually moved me to tears at one point ^^ I tried to imagine what it would have been like to see it first hand.
I called an old friend from high school, Seth, and we went to the Pink Door for some drinks. I tried to call Will too but he didn't pick up his phone :( He works in the emergency room registering people and he told me a bunch of crazy stories about the people and cases he's had to deal with. Some of his stories were hilarious and some were really, really sad. The worst were the cases when people are dead on arrival (D.O.A....like that Bloodrock song I linked you to. I found that really weird that I didn't know what it meant when I watched the video earlier today and then it came up again later in an unrelated conversation) and he has to get information from family members after the news has been broken that their loved one passed away
Now I have to pack all my crap for FL. Heh, I'm spooked out about all these music videos of dead people (the Bloodrock song is actually about a plane crash, according to the old farts) and hearing what DOA means today from Seth ^^ I'm scared shitless of flying even though I do it often ^^ I know the flight will be fine but it's still creepy!

Time to pack. I'm so fucking tired and our flight is at some terribly ridiculous time...like 5 AM. Thanks, Dad! I'm not even sure if I can sleep tonight ;p

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"Things are going to change, I can feel it" [05 Aug 2008|01:01am]
[ music | Small Time Shot Away- Massive Attack ]

Life has been surreal as of late. Everything that happens is pointing to something big coming. I feel whatever this big change is, it's good because the foreshadowing is so positive. Everyday I hear something on the radio or someone says something in passing or I read something that tells me not to give up and keep plugging away. I feel silly reporting exact events but the anticipation is building and I'm really curious as to what's going to happen.

Work is GoodRead more... )

We had some really cool thunderstorms tonight. They started while I was in work and I enjoyed watching it out of the big picture windows. The rain swirled in circles and was so think you could barely see the cars outside. There were five or six bolts of lightening striking at once through the duration of most of the storms. It was amazing. I've seen some bad storms and that one is really up there.
Gio picked me up and we went to the store to buy dinner. We had burgers and corn (mine was a veggie burger, of course) and then we watched the storms from the balcony over a glass of beer.
The lightening was so intense that I could feel the electricity surging through the air. It made my hair on my arms stand on end and made my entire body tingle. We watched a big blot of lightening strike something in the distance. There was a big boom, a reflection over a building and the sky where the blot had struck turned green. I wondered what it hit. Gio jumped and grabbed the door like he was ready to run into the house. lol.
The next door neighbors watched the storms with us for a bit too. The boyfriend of the woman who lives next door laughed his ass off when he noticed one of the other apartment tenents watching the storm behind her storm door in her bra and underwear. When she noticed him, she freaked out and ducked behind the shades. LOL. I wish I had seen it so I could have laughed as hard as he did. lol. Gio said there was a naked girl in the window across from our balcony last night but my glasses were fogged up and I couldn't see. I wonder if anyone around here has seen me naked! Yikes!
Anyway, I need to sleep. ::yawns::

Oyasumi.

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"Everybody Wang Chung Tonight" [02 Aug 2008|01:36am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Wang Chung- HATE THIS SONG BUT IT'S STUCK IN MY HEAD! ]

Man, no time for LJ! I've been working my ass off. I usually wake up at 8:30, get ready for work, leave the house by 9;30, make it to work by 9:30, clock in, deal with my feet hurting all day because I have no good shoes and can't afford them, get off work between 6 and 6:30, walk home, eat something and then Gio won't leave my side for the rest of the night. lol. I go to bed around 1:30 and that's my day. Uuuugh. I wish I could read or update LJ more but Gio can't stop touching me most of the time. He'll leave me alone for about 30 minutes tops. I guess he misses me during the day ^^

I've been busyRead more... )

I'm going to a big fire spinning party tonight and I may go to a Ren Fair on Sunday but I also have a shitton of laundry that needs to be done before I leave town on Friday. So may have to be lame and stay home to wash clothes.

I have more to say but it's not really important, like most of this entry, lol. I just really miss LJ and I never have time for it anymore between work and my boyfriend and applying to Peace Corps and fire dancing.

The only time I value my free time is when I don't have it...

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[26 Jul 2008|12:43am]
[ mood | head aching ]

I wanna talk but I have a headache. So this is gonna be really short.

Uuuugh. I spent all day trying to figure out how to get to Louisville for Carole's going away party tomorrow but the truth of the matter is I have about $200 left in my bank account, I think it's actually less than that, and I just can't afford to make the trip, which SUCKS. ::sighs:: If gas wasn't so damn expensive it would make asking people to help me a little easier. I'm really going to miss Carole. She leaves for Taiwan on Wed. :( I wish I could go back overseas. But the good news is that I start work next week and hopefully I can save up enough money to go somewhere in the next 6 months.

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Goooooood vibes [25 Jul 2008|12:10am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | "G" DJing ]

I just want to say that I'm really happy that there are so many amazing people in the world and I'm so lucky to know so many of them. I was having a bad day and really fighting PMS and I went to spin fire and just unwound with so many cool people. By the time I was ready to go, I totally had cleansed my head of all that negative energy. I need to work on fighting bad moods with poi more. That's how I got good in the first place. I used to pick up my poi when I was feeling like shit and just spin for hours and it got me through the day. Getting into poi has done so much good for me (even though I do get burnt sometimes and I have set myself on fire before. lol).

"G" is also a good man. He took me out for a beer after spinning. He also dropped me off and picked me up even though he didn't want to drive. We have our differences but when I need him, he's usually there.

Yep, life is good today. More tomorrow, but with how moody I've been thanks to my wonderful female horrormons (you bet that's a play on words), it's gonna be a struggle to keep the good vibes alive. But it's good practice for me trying to eliminate this negativity, right?

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I FINALLY LIT MY FIRE FANS! [17 Jul 2008|11:56pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | German News ]

Today was awesome because I lit my fire fans up at the Full Moon Jam!!! I've been keeping those things in the corner for months and I FINALLY got the balls to light them!! It felt great when I finally lit them up and I could do a lot more with them than I thought I could. It felt so awesome to light up but there were so many people spinning fire at the jam and the drum circle was raging so it was really easy to relax and light up because I didn't really feel anyone would be watching me anyway.

Too bad Gio ran away because hippies scare him. I could have gotten him to take some pictures :(

But I did run into Elizabeth, an old friend from high school. Her boyfriend is gonna do a fire eating lesson with me on Saturday! I'm excited! He can also teach me how to make poi wicks! yea! I'm glad Liz is back in my life :) She's cool and I think she knows a lot of cool people too :)

I have to go to sleep because I have to wake up at 6 and go to this career talk thingy tomorrow.

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Job in India! [12 Jul 2008|06:18pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | Gio DJing ]

Omg, this job is too fucking good to be true! I actually PRAYED while I was working on the application because I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY want it so bad! I can't think of any other job I've come across that I want THIS BADLY!!! Check it out. If you don't feel like reading the whole thing, I'll summarize.

http://www.bookjobs.com/viewinternship.php?prmCoID=266

Basically, I'd be working at a book distribution center helping organize their web page and helping work on a magazine. They focus on Far Eastern religious material and I'm so down with working with those kinds of books. It's a 6 month internship but can go longer. Your housing is provided and it's furnished. You also get a weekly salary and a BICYCLE! I mean, what doesn't sound good about this job? I seriously would pack my bags and leave ASAP if they hired me. That is how much I fucking want this job. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! I wanna go see India so badly and working with books and Far Eastern philosophy are a double plus. I bet I won't get the job but ::sighs:: it would be such an amazing learning opportunity if I did! I dunno, I'm sort of skeptical about the job position because it sounds too good to be true. I hope it's not a prostitution ring cover up! I'll have to do mad research if they e-mail me back to make sure this is legit.

"You're OverqualifiedRead more... )

I caught the bus home and didn't get lost! Yea! Then I dicked around looking at jobs online all day. I looked at some in Dubai and then I found the one in India! I really, REALLY want that job! Omg, I going to start believing right now that I will get it and maybe if I stay positive enough, something good will happen. It sucks being down all the time because it makes me not even want to hang out with myself ^^ Something will happen this week and I will get a job. I will get a job. I WILL! I have to believe it...nothing has happened to me that I haven't manifested with a positive attitude and hard work. So maybe I'm manifesting my own bad luck with low morale and laziness and my rotten attitude. I guess I need to just work harder. No more of this "I can't." I WILL.

At least I hope that's the case

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Grocery store job fair...woooooh. Taste the enthusiasm [12 Jul 2008|01:20am]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | Beat It- Michael Jackson ]

Damnit, I'm actually inspired to write a story or work on my Japan stories tonight but I have to go to bed so I can go to this grocery store job fair tomorrow. ;p

I'm thinking about re-enrolling at UC and trying to get a degree in early child education. It's required at all IL pre-schools and a lot of schools abroad. It would give me a heads up in the job market for overseas teaching. That or throw down the retarded amount of money to get TEFL certified. I was looking at all these teach abroad jobs today and they all require TELF and some even require a degree in ECE. It's annoying I didn't realize this before and double major. ::sighs::

A marketing company contacted me. Sounds like door to door sales at businesses; I'll pass

I had some good Vietnamese food tonight! Gio and I went to China town and ate at Tank Noodle. I also had a yummy spring roll and an avacado shake! Yum! I was in a bad mood before that because I'm frustrated that I can't find a job but I feel better since I my craving for Asian food was satisfied :) I've cooked dinner for myself every night for two weeks and I needed a break ^^

So yeah, I may be bagging groceries soon but at least I'll be making a few pennies. I just need money to go back overseas and if that's the way I have to earn it, so be it. At least I won't feel bad about leaving the job since grocery stores have high turnovers.

I'll be even more disappointed if I DON'T get the job for something stupid like my dreds ;p I was turned down from Starbucks and Bed, Bath and Beyond, jobs that I'm totally over qualified for. However, I was intercepted during both of my calls to the manager by assistant managers telling me to fuck off because they don't want me to bug the manager about the status of my job application. Those call backs are THE WAY I landed jobs for myself. But when stupid, bitchy assistant managers play manager and I can't speak to the person who's REALLY in charge, that's when that tactic fails and it's failed me twice because of that ;p

The job market is just so tough these days it makes me want to cry. I've been looking for a job since fucking JANUARY!!

Sometimes I think if I just fix my attitude be positive, things will change...I hope that's the case. Maybe it's not the world and the state of the economy...maybe it's just me...

What the fuck is wrong with me? Why can't I get a job?!Read more... )

Another day, one less dollar that I've saved gone and one more tomorrow that I pray brings me a job.

One of these days it's bound to happen. I'm just so tired of waiting...

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Smashing Pumpkins or no Smashing Pumpkins [10 Jul 2008|02:59am]
[ mood | curious ]

Should I go to see Smashing Pumpkins? They're playing really close to Chicago and I can't decide if I want to go or not. I've been obsessed with them for 10 years but the band members aren't the same as the original band members so it makes it a little different for me.

Plus, wonder if the show doesn't live up to my expectations??? Billy Corgan is kinda old and washed up these days :( I dunno, I'd probably cry if I got to hear Billy Corgan play live because I love his music so much.

But I'm also afraid of being let down and it not living up to my expectations and the tickets will probably be super expensive.

Waaah! Moral delima!

More tomorrow. I ate a bunch of cheese sticks and now I feel sick :(

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I haz Job Interview! [04 Jul 2008|01:33am]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | Does She Know- Art of Trance ]

So I got a call this morning from Mitsubishi! They want to interview me on Monday! They're interested in me because I speak Japanese. This should be really interesting. I need to a) Practice Japanese and b) Call Tomoko to practice Japanese AND ask advice about interviewing with a Japanese company. I also have to go buy a suit because I want to impress them.

Honestly, I wish I wasn't set up to interview with a company like Mitsubishi. They didn't even tell me who they were on the phone. I didn't find out until I got the e-mail. I thought it was an imports company that I sent my resume to but the lady who called me said that she found my resume online. Mitsubishi makes cars and contributes to the oil crisis. I'm not down with that. I knew a Japanese guy who engineered tanks for Mitsubishi. I'm not down with war machines either. But I will get to use Japanese on the job and it will prepare me to go back to Japan if I get the job. I also know that Mitsubishi is innovative and they're probably working on a lot of amazing technology. I know they make a lot more than cars.

Everyone has a price, I guess, and my price is pretty low because I'm trying to make enough money to go back to Japan. I live by my principals like not driving (a big part of moving to Chicago was the efficient train system) and not supporting the meat industry and eating healthy, organic food. I'll make up for selling out when I go back overseas. I'm getting ready to start my Peace Corps application so hopefully I can right all the wrongs I'll make by compromising my morals until I can go back to Japan or work for an NGO instead of an MNC.

I probably won't even get the job. They'll take one look at my hair and throw me out on the street. But it's worth a shot ::Shrugs::

Check this out! Gio and I saw this in the park today. This things is fucking trippy Awesome! And all of these pictures came from my phone! The camera on that thing is really nice. It's better than my crappy ass digital camera sometimes! lol.


This thing was soooo cool. I could have taken pictures of it all day. The close ups are awesome. Check it out below.

It's the BEAN!Read more... )

Today was a good dayRead more... )

Today was filled with good signs :) I hope they keep coming.

Tomorrow Gio and I are going down to Navy Pier for some more 4th of Julying. On Saturday I'm going suit shopping and on Saturday night we're going to see Kode 9 (dubstep group form the UK) at some posh club. I was sort of nervous because I didn't know what I was going to wear but I got some nice club clothes in Dubai that I can bust out since I did used to work at a club. Monday I have the job interview! Waaaaaaaaah! Kowaii!

And Brenna wanted to see the videos of me fire dancing at GMF so here's a couple. They're pretty crappy quality but I'll put them up anyway. I wish these videos looked as fantastic as I felt!





Sorry about the media heavy post. I just had a lot to show you today ^^
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[03 Jul 2008|03:03am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Evil 9 ]

Today was pretty boring. I tried to download my journal but couldn't figure out how to do it. I don't want to download it as a txt. document. I'm going to start cleaning up the Japan stuff and gearing it up for attempted publication...if I can ever figure out how to download it.

I'm unemployed and bored right now so why not, right?

Oh yeah, and Four Quarters contacted me. They had the PA board of health investigate the place today. They think it may have come from the field kitchen. According to the PA board of health, it was stomach virus. Blah, I'm sleepy. Time to sleep. ZZZZZZZZZZZZ

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Letter to Four Quarters and the Gaian Mind Production Company [02 Jul 2008|12:37am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

After a lot of contemplation and careful wording, I composed an e-mail and sent it to the people who threw the Gaian Mind Festival Party and the venue, Four Quarters, to alert them about the illness that affected so many people who did and did not meet each other at the party. I hope it doesn't sound too bitchy. I just really think they need to know about it, especially since my boyfriend also has it now...

The E-mailRead more... )

I just hope they don't think I'm going to sue them ^^ I really just want them to know what happened so they can make sure no one gets that sick next year...

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[30 Jun 2008|06:32am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Deftons ]

So yeah, I met this guy at MWEMF who went to Gaian Mind Festival too and HE WAS ALSO SICK WITH THE SAME THING THAT I HAVE! (as of yesterday morning I was still sick. I was fine for the rest of yesterday but the sickness is touch and go). We narrowed the sickness down to coming from the coffee shop because their sanitation practices weren't the best. You had to wash your own cup. There were soap, water and sanitation sections of a sink but we had no idea how often they changed the water or if it was done properly. I need to contact the GMF people and tell them how many people I've met from different states who got sick. It sucks because it's a lawsuit waiting to happen and if I were a grubby, greedy, money hungry bitch I'd sue, but I loved what happened at the party and I just don't want it to happen to people again next year. I just want the venue to be aware of the epidemic and I pray no one else who attended the party and got sick sues...

As for MEMF, it's been deemed Midwest Electronic Music FAIL. That party was HORRIBLE! I have no faith in the rave scene in the Midwest anymore after this. The psy scene is coming up, it's very progressive and is so much more promising. The psytrance party I went to in PN was packed with people whereas this party, which was promoted as being huge, did NOT have a good turn out. When I go to psytrance parties, everyone is dancing. When I go to Midwest raves, everyone is standing or sitting around in a fucked up, apathetic state. Plus, the production company dicked over their DJ's so a lot of DJ's just went home and didn't spin at all. It was really, really sad. It made me wish that the Midwest rave scene would just get it over with and die so that new, more progressive electronic music scenes could come forward. Even though I hate hipsters and I hate hipster parties but at least those kids are into their scene and dance to their music.

It makes me really sad to finally admit that I really don't enjoy going to non psytrance parties anymore. I just get so disgusted with the people at the parties, I don't really enjoy drum and bass (which is all they play at Midwest parties sometimes) and a lot of times, DJ's don't even spin any new tracks. We're listening to the same crap we were listening to 4 years ago! There's no progress being made because everyone is trying to party like it's still 1999 instead of pushing things forward. This party was just another nail in the coffin of the dead Midwest scene.

I'm really not even interested in going to non psy parties anymore. But Gio still really enjoys non psy raves though and he's not a big fan of psytrance, so convincing him to go to psy events with me is going to be really tough. He thinks psytrance people are weird, even though he's never been to a big psytrance party. I'm hoping I can meet some psytrance people up here that will take me to parties so I don't have to drag Gio's whining, bitching ass along with me. lol. I mean, I can see where he's coming from because American full on psytrance SUCKS, but the more the scene grows, the more the DJ's will learn about throwing down like the overseas DJ's.

I'm not going to waste time talking about MWEMF today. I'd rather finish my story about Gaian Mind Festival.

GMF2008 Part IIIRead more... )

I'll stop there. Damn, this party was so epic. I always think I'm gonna finish the story with each new entry about it but so much happened that it usually takes pages to even talk about a half day! lol. I don't think I've ever told a party story that was THIS long. LOL.

Anyway, I gotta look for temp agencies so I can make SOME money while I'm looking for a job. I only have about a month's worth of money left ^^ This is BAD. I can't wait around for a job. I have to find some way to make money and if that means temping it like a bitch, that's what I'm going to do...

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My mind has been blown away [21 Jun 2008|10:11pm]
[ mood | impressed ]

That fucking psytrance festival was AMAZING! It was the most intense party I've EVER attended. I was hit by so much creativity and cutting edge music, art, technology and fashion that I am just stunned. I met so many cool people and spun fire like the way I always dreamed of being able to do it. I had some MAJOR poi break throughs from all the creative energy. The festival was at a pegan sancuatary and the alters and vibe of the place were beautiful. All the people I met were amazing. I feel inspired to do something awesome!

I have to let it all sink in and then I'll write about it tomorrow.

LONG LIVE PSYTRANCE!

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Considering a friends cut [13 Jun 2008|07:58pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

For the first time ever I'm considering a large friends cut. I realized there's a lot of people I talk to on this thing that don't really care if I talk to them or not. It sucks because I love having lots of LJ friends but I don't want to have friends that don't enjoy talking to me...especially people I've known for years that constantly ignore my posts and didn't even have anything to say about my grandma dying or my graduation. That, to me, just sends a message that I'm clogging up some people's friends' page. I'm not trying to whore for attention but I know that I've supported a lot of people through hard times and then when I was going through something difficult, they didn't even have the symapthy to type the five letter word s-o-r-r-y.

Seriously, think of all the times I said something to you when shit hit the fan in your lives. But the people that I'm the most pissed off at about this probably aren't even reading my entry so this is futile. I understand that a lot of you don't use LJ daily, and I'm not pissed at those people. But I am pissed off at the ones who DO and who have known me for a long time have really made me question why I even bother commenting on their entries.

I know I can be long winded but I like to practice my writing. I don't know, honestly, every time I think about going and deleting people I'm like, "Aw, but I like reading his or her entries!"

Ima update now but I'll do it in a separate post because this is something that I wanted to bring to people's attention in case someone really wants to tell me if they want to be cut or not.

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I'm finished! [12 Jun 2008|07:27pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | The Bridal- Sage Francis ]

I just sent my last undergraduate essay to my professor. I am DONE WITH EVERYTHING! To graduation...AND BEYOND!

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She's gone [10 Jun 2008|08:40am]
[ mood | relieved ]

"For Martha" by Smashing Pumpkins

Whenever I run
Whenever I run to you lost one
Its never done
Just hanging on

Just past has let me be
Returning as if dream
Shattered as belief

If you have to go dont say goodbye
If you have to go dont you cry
If you have to go I will get by
Someday Ill follow you and see you on the other side

But for the grace of love
Id will the meaning of
Heaven from above

Your picture out of time
Left aching in my mind
Shadows kept alive

If you have to go dont say goodbye
If you have to go dont you cry
If you have to go I will get by
I will follow you and see you on the other side

But for the grace of love
Id will the meaning of
Heaven from above

Long horses we are born
Creatures more than torn
Mourning our way home

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